Friday, August 12, 2011


Beauty.  I have struggled with feelings of insecurity since I was in high school.  I can't pinpoint exactly when I started feeling so un-beautiful, but it is something that has grown and grown.  There have been times when I couldn't even look in the mirror because I was so disgusted/embarrassed by what I saw.

And then I had 2 beautiful daughters.

And I promised myself that I would change the way I feel about myself for them.  They need a mother who likes herself.  Who thinks she is beautiful.  And who teaches them to find beauty in themselves and in others.

It has been a slow process.  And I still struggle on a daily basis.  But it is getting easier.

I see something of myself in both of my girls every single day, and that really does make me feel beautiful.  Abby's eyes.  Vala's chin.  They are sweet reflections of me, and I love my girls all the more for showing me how to find the beauty in myself again.